Remembering my little Willow today and everyday.
On this day last year I was awoken by the nurse and professor and asked to have daddy come to the hospital for a chat, I told them daddy would be too busy at work, they insisted.
Later the professor sat us down and told us you may not last the day, she could hardly get the words out, she cried and we cried.
We were told to have those that wanted to see you to come. And what a turn out you had.
All your grandparents and aunties and uncles and your big brother too.
I still had hope that you could get through this, you were so strong, I wasn’t going to lose you this day.
When your daddy rushed out to get me I thought it was to help with the doctors, with changing your nappy.
As soon as I saw your face I gasped, I ran, I held you and I tried to save you. I screamed and I cried, I touched your nose to get you to push me away, I kissed you and kissed you and held you close, I screamed and I cried.
All night I held your hand not wanting to let go, and I won’t let go.
I won’t forget you, I won’t stop honouring you and I won’t stop missing you.
Forever my baby.
“You are my favourite thing, my very favourite thing”
Louisa
5th February 2019
